So why Kentucky? Part 2

Sorry ahead of time that these posts are so long, once I get past explaining the journey up until now I think the blogs will be a lot shorter :)



So in October and December is when Seminary started coming up in my head again...I would wake up in the middle of the night with it on my brain, I would think about it while I was having conversations with other people. During December I had 2 weeks off from work, it was a very emotional time in my life, God was closing the door to one area of my life "the distraction". But with that closing it meant nothing was holding me back anymore and that I was free to go....go where? Well Kentucky of course haha :)



I was at my fave place to have personal mini "retreats" the coffe shope aromas haha and I was reading and writing and praying and reading my Bible and crying, and I deicded to start looking at Southern again, so I went online looked through it and got real excited and real nervous, I had been thinking about it a lot and praying about it. I pulled up the application and was reading through it and soon my excitement turned to hurt and bitterness and fear. That was one of the hardest applications I would have to fill out, the reasons I will not share on this blog but I knew just feeling it out would be a test of my faith and if I believed in Grace or not. I closed the application cried a lot than called my Pastors wife Liz we talked for about 2 hours about all of this and the door that I needed to close once and for all in my life so that night I finally did. With that a huge burdon lifted off me and I knew it was time to take a step in the direction God was leading me which was Seminary but the application scared me....so I wasn't ready just yet.

I went to Danvill the next day for Christmas with my family. The week I was there I discussed the idea of Seminary with them a lot. My dad wanted me to move to Danvill and live there, get a job than eventually get married, but I knew that was not Gods plan. (Quite some time later my dad agreed that God was leading me to seminary wich was such a blessing that he finally saw that)


While I was there I got a devotional on Gods will, which was nothing what I thought it would be I thought it would tell me exactly what Gods will for me was haha. Well it did in a way. It talked about John 15 as knowing Gods will for our lives, and how his will is for us to remain in him, to be known by him, to know him, to love him, and to bear much fruit and if we are doing that in whatever season of life we are in we are in Gods will. It also had a section on 3 ways to discover Gods will for a certain decision and that it was not all emotional, but to see if it lines up with scripture and if doing it would cause you to sin, if your circumstances match up, and if Godly people in your life confirm it. Well I did this devotional about the time that I started talking to people seriously about applying to school, they all confirmed it even those I told them I was terrified and probably wouldn't do it, but I knew I had to get out of VA. Than my circumstances lined up, doors in my life were being closed and I was free to make a change, and by going I would be able to obey Scripture.

I went home and talked to some people and on December 30th my bday I printed out the application for The Southern Baptist Theological Seminary. I had researched other schools and they were all great schools and I could never explain why I didn't apply to any of them except that I feel my heart was closed off to them. It was like there was a target on Southern and I had no idea why, I just knew if Seminary was where God was leading me that was where I had to be. So I spent January filling out applications, getting references and getting back involved at Bethel's youth group which was sweet, it was so good to be back and volunteering in my free time. God started healing some wounds and began to get me excited about school, it started as me applying in obedience but ended in me getting excited than real anxious I wouldn't get in.

The month up until I found out I started getting real worried. How would I pay for this, where would I live, how would I eat (a nice friend said with a plate and fork), can I really leave everyone I know, Kentucky, do I really want to get rid of everything I own and get new stuff when I get there, how would I move there, will I have friends, I have never lived away from some sort of family, what about my Christian family in NN....than one night God gently and graciously spoke to me and reminded me of the first disciples....I could feel him speaking to my heart and telling me that he told them to follow him so they left everything, family, job, their income, friends, possessions, dropped what they were doing and followed him. And no where do you read that they died of starvation, or didn't have what they needed....he was like Kellie if I did that for them I can and will do that for you. Right after that all my questions started to get answered of the how when where and why.

Stuff got complicated with my application and I didn't have stuff that I needed so the date I found out kept getting pushed back. Finally on March 4th on a beautiful day after Lori and I rode bikes to the river before work I had a congratulations letter in my email inbox...I was going to southern!!!!! The rest to come later.........