Is your first desire in life God?

Today my scripture reading was Psalms 73-75. Three verses from these chapters really made me stop and think, and reflect on my own life from these verses, and I thought I would share sense we are all humans and I am guessing I am not the only one who has thought these things or struggled through some of this stuff. These verses are Psalm 73: 25-26 whom do I have in heave but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Also, Psalm 73: 28 But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works.
These verses really stuck out to me. I started to ask myself if I could say these verses with all honesty. Is there anything on earth that I desire but God or before God? Because I am human, I sometimes desire the gifts of God more than I do God, for example at this time in many of our lives the gift of marriage is something that a lot of us myself included think about. I need to make sure it is not my main desire, that God is always my desire. It makes me think of God is the Gospel by John Piper, he says we normally want the gifts of God like forgiveness, peace, grace ect which is all good things until we want them more than we want God. He says to ask people what they are looking forward to the most in heaven to prove that concept, he said most people would say no more suffering, pain, or tears, things like that, but few people the first thing they say is to see Jesus.
I think of this same thing every time I sing the worship song enough, I always wonder do I live like God is more than enough for me or do I live like I am searching for something else to fill some void? It reminds me of a conversation I had this summer with a good friend about that song, and that because we are humans we can never say it honestly we can say God I want you to be enough I want you to be more than enough, but it is hard to say you are enough...that's the point I want to get too...does it take brokenness to get to that point? Does it take losing everything like Job to say God you are enough. I say God is enough but than a day or so later my flesh wants something else, I know I am not alone in this, this is where materialism comes from look at the world around us and you will see people maybe yourself who does not live like God is enough. So does it take losing everything like Job did all his possisions and family to say God you give and take away but I will praise you...basically you are enough, I enjoy your gifts but I want you more...just things to ponder
Another thing I thought of was verse 28 and if for me is it good to be near the Lord. Do I enjoy doing quiet times or has it become a burden do I long to be in God’s presence or do I live this life for myself? God is a tricky God sometimes haha because in class today we talked about this, and how sometimes the things we are supposed to becomes a habit, routine, or drudgery but we should enjoy things. When it becomes a habit we should remember what God has promised us in Romans 8:29 and what we will one day become. We read the Bible, we pray, and we draw near to God to discipline ourselves in Godliness, the purpose is Godliness...1 Timothy 4:7...I love how I hear stuff like that in class and how it is going with my own quiet times...how sweet it is to hear Jesus' name in class!
These are all hard questions that over the next few days I will be honestly reflecting on. I want to say with all honesty and conviction that God is more than enough for me and that I desire nothing more than God himself! I hope that you too will think about these questions and your verses in your own life. Is God more then enough? Is God your first desire or do you desire the things of him more, do you desire a relationship, success, a good job, ministry position, ect. more than God. One way to think about that is where are your thoughts most of the time, are they on God or things listed above. God blesses us and gives us gifts, great gifts and he gives us desires like marriage and serving him in ministry so none of that is wrong at all, don't think I am saying that, it is wrong when we think about and desire those things more than the God who gave them to us in the first place.